<TITLE>04. Par -</TITLE>L-5-3 But here they come. And they were so terrifically fast, till I thought when it lifted up... I heard that explosion like, or like a blast that went out, like a sound barrier; and when it did, I thought, "Well, this must mean that I'm fixing to be killed (See?) in a blast of some sort." And--and I--and while I thought on those things, I thought, "No, it wouldn't be that, because if it was a blast, it would've got Joseph too, because there he is still talking, thinking that I'm there. I can hear him. It wasn't that."
This is all still in the vision. It wasn't... See, it's in the vision. And then all at once, as I realized that I had been... They were around me. I couldn't see them, but I'd been brought into this constellation of a pyramid of them, inside this constellation of--of Angels, of five. And I thought, "Now, a death angel would be one, five would be grace." I was thinking that; I thought, "Oh, it's the--it's coming with my message. That's my second climax. They're coming to bring me the message from the Lord." And I screamed out with all of my might, as loud as I could, "Oh Jesus, what would You have me do?" And when I did, it just--just went away from me.

L-5-5 I--I--I haven't felt just right since. See? I was... All day yesterday, I had to stay in the house, almost feeling beside myself, I can't make my mind get clear, and the glory and power of the Lord... I was numb all over when it left me. I was trying to rub my hands, and I thought, "I can't catch my breath." And I walked around and--through the floor, and back and forth. And I thought, "What does it mean, Lord? What does it mean?"
And then I stopped and I said, "Lord God, Your servant is... I--I just cannot understand why. What was that? Make it known, Lord."

L-6-1 Well, when the... I can't tell you about when I say, "Power of the Lord." There's no way to explain that. It isn't what you feel here in the blessings. That's the blessings of the Lord. This is a sacred... Oh, my. It's--it's beyond anything that a mortal could even imagine. See?
And it--and it was bothering me real bad. It don't--it isn't a blessing; it's a bother; you're troubled. See? If it is... If you could only... If I could only get some way that I could tell the people what that was, or what--what the feeling of it was. It--it isn't just like setting here want to rejoice. It's--it's something that every nerve in you just... It's beyond scare; it's beyond frightened; it's a holy reverence of... How... There's no way to explain it. Even to my entire back, up and down my spine, through my fingers, up and down, on my feet and toes, my whole being was just numbed. See, just like you was--you'd--it way out of the world somewhere. And--and it was leaving me gradually. And I said to the--to the Lord, "Will You just let me know, O God."
I guess the closest that ever come of being that strong again was when I was in Zurich, Switzerland, that time when He showed me that German Eagle watching that English horse rider come down through Africa. And He said, "All have sinned and come short of the glory."

L-6-4 And I was crying out to the Lord to help me. And I--I wanted Him to give me the interpretation, because I wondered if it meant--if it meant that I was going to go away--I was going to be killed. And if it was, I wasn't going to say anything to the family about it. If it's my time to go home, I'll just go home; that's all of it. But if--if that's what it meant, I didn't want to tell the family, didn't want them to know nothing about it; just let done, and that--that would be all of it.
And I said, "Lord, help me. I don't want to tell the family if--if You're... If it's my call home, why, I--I'll be going," You see? I said--and I... You know... You say, "Why didn't you think about what you said in the vision, what the vision said?" But you can't think of things like that then. You... I can't anyhow.


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